My experiences growing up as a young child, taught me a lot about what the world says. Being in Foster homes and going through an international adoption, there were many individual adults who said to me along the way, ‘Don’t worry, its going to be ok’. Well after realizing that this was worth nothing, like a crumpled up piece of paper, I always had to dig deep and seek far and wide, for my own answers that made some sense to me, with the proof. It was a tough cookie to crumble at first but going through life, that has been one of my strongest support systems in my journeys. Not to take things that people say as if it was the living truth, but to do my own research and prove things to myself. An architect couldn’t have designed this body strength temple any better. This leads me to a gift from me to you, so that you can always keep this in your strongest pocket that is always with you; your heart pocket;
I couldn’t explain to you enough how little self respect I had for myself, absolutely no self worth, always carrying that bag of ‘black sheep and outcast’ label right on the front of my forehead. Being adopted was very tough for me many years ago, but then, one day, I got it and I finally shed all that old skin and I let it go. It’s easy to see when you open your eyes and look at the world. Your eyes, your mind, your thoughts and the proof will be right in front of you. So I looked around me at other people, happy people and I loved looking at happy families, good friends and I would tell myself that I wanted to be like them, happy. My whole life has been one race, to get in that saddle, wait for the gates to open and head around that track as best as I could until I get to the finish. Every day, I keep heading to the finish line as we all do, but until then, there is no logical reason for me to quit being happy, no proof of any of that so I go by what I see.
I have had so many friends and seen so many people who have been put down by others, in my personal life, while working as a Police Officer, going to domestic dispute after domestic dispute and the same when I was working in the Security field for several years. No one has a right to be that abusive to another human being, so as to put you down so much that they can sometimes put you to your grave.
Yes, when you look in that mirror in the mornings, you are looking at the true reflection of you. Paint that portrait and hold it tight and never let anyone else paint any other picture of you and defend you always. Believe in every wave that you ride and ride the waves always with courage. For you know who you are and you are the only one who sees you perfectly every second of every day. The very last thing that you need to believe in is someone else, without the proof.
You are always good enough. So get your you know what out there and be happy and have just a super day!